A Role Well Played...

I had this dream night till last. So night to the 29th June..

I'm out walking along a frozen lake with 2 friends from childhood. One is called Andreas, and I know who the other one is although I can't remember anymore. We're walking along the waters and talking, chit-chatting like teenagers do. As we walk further along the edge of the lake I notice that the ice seems to be breaking up, and as we move further along it gets more and more broken up, until I see that we are wading in these fist-size ice blocks. Then I suddenly notice that I'm at least 10 meters out in the lake, and there is hardly any ice left, it's all melted, and the water is dark and murky.

I see my friends trying to swim just a meter or two out from the shore, and a thought hits me. They shouldn't have to struggle when I can do it. Suddenly I feel power, enormous presence, and all of a sudden I fly up a couple of meters above the water, absolutely effortless. It's like I just know I can do this, but I haven't done it before, but still I know. Then I raise my hand, and I can feel the energy I hold and command, and again I just do things without thought, just doing it. Suddenly my two friends are lifted out of the waters, tumbling around in the air as I lift them up to set them down on stable ground. As they float through the air I can see them change, grow older, and as they close to the ground they both have black wedding tuxedos on them, and a beautiful bride in a white wedding dress stands waiting for them on the ground, and as they land a child appears by them also.

I see that I took on their darkness, all of it, so that they could have a life with joy and love. It's like I say it's alright, I can handle it. Then I look down to the dark waters, and I shoot down head first towards it. I take a deep breath before I hit the surface, and I remember feeling a bit afraid that I wouldn't be able to last down there. As I go under I remember that I've been able to breathe underwater before, so I try to take a breath, but nothing happens. A second later I can feel that I need air, and breathing just happens automatically. I then stand upright under the surface and all I can see is the water around me, and suddenly this white smoke appears before me. It shapes itself into a face, and comes towards me and through me. Then another comes, and another, and another. It starts off a bit slow, but still so fast I can't make out the features, I just know it's a face. Then they come at me so fast I just stand almost like Jesus on the cross with arms out, taking it all on as it comes. As this happens, as each face comes, I can feel something being triggered in me, something releasing and flowing out through my body. It happens with each face so there's a lot of it happening. The whole thing takes just a few seconds though, and as the last face appears I see it is in the shape of an angry man. 

As I feel through this dream I realize that I took on all of the darkness of my friends so that they could live joyfully, and that's why we didn't have much contact over the years. Not only that, but I have taken on all the anger that I possibly could, from everybody. Because I've been so terrified of it, I've just locked it in my root and ran away, thinking it was mine, and that's how I've taken it all on. I see the people who picked on me at school, and this time the first thing that pops into my head is "How bad must you have had it that this is what you had to do to survive?" And here's where I see how enormous my task has been. I have chosen to take on all the anger and abuse that I possibly could, everything, and I hear myself say "It's ok, I can take it, let me have it all," with a calm and loving voice to those who lashed out towards me.

As I see through the row of abusers, I think of one and I instantly feel a kick of anger from the bottom of my belly. I sit still with it for a few moments, and I feel the anger and fear move through me. Suddenly I see him again, and he is smiling at me. The string is cut. I have transformed that which I was able to, and now I have set him free. I have set ME free. I have played this role all my life, but now I am done. It is not necessary anymore, and I can leave it behind, feeling grateful and proud of the enormous task I have completed. 

Blessings From the Childhood Bully

I was walking down a road to get home. As I was walking I met one of the boys from my youth who were one of the more extreme participants in picking on me. I approached him and he smiled at me. I asked him what he was doing now, and he said he was an exploder of sorts. Immediately when he said that, I saw him and Kevin James (the guy from King of Queens) attach all these explosives to the roof of the cave. I realized that they were blowing themselves upwards towards the surface, and I saw how they created explosions so that large portions of the ceiling would fall down. I “zoomed” in on the explosives and next to them I saw several gift-wrapped presents also attached. The man from my youth and Kevin James lit the fuse, and they ran off in opposite directions with a smile on their face. It feels as though they are so proud of what they’ve done and that they did it out of love.

Notes:
This dream is so beautiful. I feel very strongly that it's showing me the people who "picked on" me when I was little, and showing me their function. That they create this explosive "cave in" of darkness on the way "up" to the light, and that the explosions are gifts in themselves, or bring gifts.The King of Queens, the Heart, creates these explosions through childhood trauma.

I welcome any and all opinions as to what this dream may suggest. If you see another depth, another layer, to this dream, or if you have another feeling about it, please share.

Cardinal Cross and Atlantis

I’m walking down a road with a man and his son. I look up at the sky and see this amazing lineup of planets and they are all waning crescent. The first thing that strikes me is that this is the grand cross, but all I see is an L shape. All the planets look huge, they feel like the cardinals somehow. I feel like I can distinguish them, but they are too brightly lit up to see it visually. There’s just this knowing. I fly up a bit to get a better look, and I see the horizontal line of planets is much more than I could see from the ground. I feel the L shape is made up of around 6 planets, with 4 on the horizontal line and 2 on the vertical. As I land I express my extreme curiosity and excitement, and I jump even further up this time. I jump so that the clouds in the sky are below the planets. I now see a diagonal line of planets that are not as big, but many. It feels like “all of them.” 5-6 or so. All of them waning crescent. The formation is the biggest thing I’ve seen, and it’s so beautiful. It feels almost like a giant arrow. Like it’s pointing us – humanity – to something. The man asks me in regards to my flying, and mentions some man who apparently managed to make himself invisible. I feel my body tingle with the energy I set in motion, and give it a try. I look at the man and he shakes his head. It doesn’t bother me, I am in bliss by just being me. I fly down the road and suddenly I’m at some kind of docks, where I see people levitating back and forth with these kind of Lego pieces. They are put in what looks like a square formation in the sea. The Lego pieces are just starting to break the surface, and it feels very much like the foundation is being built. It immediately strikes me that this is Atlantis. It also feels that it’s being built in hiding, secretly and quietly. Somehow out of necessity. It’s like we’re building the frames for Atlantis to come back to upon its return.

Notes:
I've described much of what feelings I get throughout the dream. So to clarify, it feels very much like the Grand Cross is pointing humanity towards the return of Atlantis. This to me feels like the return to living Divine Truth. The return to NOW, All That Is. Now, I don't really know a lot about this whole astrology business, but when I was dreaming it was as if I just knew..

I welcome any and all opinions as to what this dream may suggest. If you see another depth, another layer, to this dream, or if you have another feeling about it, please share.

Red Fullmoon

I saw the moon. It was huge, and it had a red tint from it like when it is in eclipse. It came crashing down towards Earth. As it crashed I saw people around me flee, but I just stood still and observed, and half of it broke loose and was catapulted back into space somehow. It looked like a large waxing crescent. The hit felt so powerful that large chunks of the earth started coming loose, and immediately as they did they imploded in to the center of the earth. This continued until all that was left was a small black platform. A man was standing there and beckoned me to come down, and I did. As I stepped on to the platform, he said "Let's have a look at your spirituality" or something similar. Soft blue shining balls of light drew closer from all directions. It looks like many, but it feels like it's just one all encompassing. I could see them, but at the same time they were infinite, all encompassing.


Notes:
Many layers of this dream has come to me the past weeks. At first I thought it is me clearing out all baggage until the solar eclipse on the 11th july. Then with all the events of the past weeks I realized that I am testing myself and allowing myself to express and embrace and love all that I have rejected before. As I write this I also see that the "many" blue balls closing in are all the so-called fragments of me - my soul - that are coming home again. Reclaiming my true power.

I welcome any and all opinions as to what this dream may suggest. If you see another depth, another layer, to this dream, or if you have another feeling about it, please share.